52 Weeks 500 Words
This is how it began: Justine (not her real
name) decided to write 500 words (or as near as), anything goes, per week for 52
weeks. She would then submit it for anonymous posting, via me, her friend.
Perhaps a pattern will emerge from her words, but at this stage it’s more an
experiment I have agreed to share in. I’ll attempt to draw conclusions at the
end of this. Stay tuned if this resonates with you.
Week 14
I admit, I’ve come to use this weekly post as a means to
decipher my state of mind over the days past since the last one. Yes, that was
and is the point, but the way I do it has changed.
Initially, when we started this, I would have pen and paper
handy and jot notes as I went, or I would add to a document already open on my
computer. A rolling commentary of days, so to speak, the issues, ideas and
thoughts that came to mind to be recorded as they happened.
Life, however, blunts the edges. Eventually I found myself
hurriedly sitting to quickly compose a post for submission, even when I didn’t
feel like doing so, because a promise after all is a promise. In a strange way,
that very act of writing hurriedly actually served to focus my thoughts, and
therefore the exercise is not without merit. Still, the attention I thought to
give to this went right out of the proverbial door – life got in the way.
What started out as a desire to discover who I am became all
too quickly merely a matter of keeping a promise. I think this happened after
the situation with that idiot who smashed into my car – I could not write
because of the state I was in … and then wrote something quickly just to get it
off my chest, and that set the tone. Are we not creatures of habit?
For your information, I am now composing this before due
date. This is a conscious decision to see if doing so changes the manner in
which I share thoughts. I will step away from this just now and return to it
before I send it on.
If there is a marked difference, tell me!
Right, at this point I took a breath and searched my store
of thoughts, to find the best issue to address here. Guess what came up first?
My absolute disenchantment with the ‘season to be jolly’.
Christmas is coming and I want to hide away, yes, but I really don’t want to
discuss it yet. In a way I’m hoping something good will happen to change my
mind and therefore I must not at this point step on the likelihood by airing
all those negative thoughts. Expect an update closer to the days in question!
I know this weekly update is from a woman’s perspective …
how else? I do wonder, however, if men read it, and if they are able to use
points made to further their understanding of how women think. Sometimes I wish
I could read a weekly post from a man not afraid to air his feelings, in order
to understand how men think. This would promote better understanding between
the sexes, not so? On the other hand, let us be objective here. This journal is
one woman’s mind set and doesn’t describe all of us, therefore one man’s
entries cannot ever explain how all men think and act. We would have to collate
multiple posts from different times and different countries, seasons, income
groups and so forth, and that is a task I don’t relish undertaking.
For now, therefore, I’ll stick to this and see what comes
up.'
(It seems to me, I thought more for this post, because there
was no rush to write. It also feels as if this post is unfinished, as if there
is more to say this week. A sign, I believe, of the processors in my brain
kicking in when I take my time. Right?)
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